Blade Runner

so i'm stuck in my film study class watching blade runner..

i don't entire understand it yet, its kinda lame. i'm hoping

ill catch on in a bit, but i highly doubt that.

my attention span is not working today lol.

im tired from doing nothing if that makes sense.

maybe its cause im hoping this class goes by quickly so i

can leave and go out to the mandarin with leviana and nick

and then to the Toronto Free Art Gallery so i can interview

the owner for my article for FutuReale :) i think i need to

start going downtown more often, being down town makes
me happy.

well hope everybodys having a good day.

ill post the second half to my story maybe tomorrow.

i wont have time tonight, going out to the pub on campus

for the first time, since you know, im finally legal :)

peace&love.

"One Night Stand"

She woke up to the sound of a dull thud from a beer bottle falling onto the hardwood floor. Lily rolled over onto her side to see it roll away underneath a chair. She tried to sit up. More junk fell off of her lap and onto the floor and a head ache that came out of no where.

"What the hell happened last night," she wondered aloud while rubbing her eyes. She looked around her living room. The floor was littered with garbage, cups and napkins, some strewn clothes and god knows what the dried up liquids were. There were scattered beer cans and vodka bottles all over the tables, some empty, some full. She was not looking forward to cleaning this up later.

As Lily got ready to stand up, she head a noise from the kitchen. Immediately her senses kicked in and she was on edge. Who the hell was in her kitchen? She stood up quickly, which turned out to be a bad idea because she sunk right back down into her couch. A second later a half-naked man walked in holding a mug.

"Who the hell are you?" she demanded.

"Some party last night eh, you were completely plastered, as pissed as they come," the words rolled out of his mouth because of his accent. Was it an English accent? No, probably Irish. Lily didn't know, either way it made her tongue feel funny listening to him talk. Suddenly, it felt like her privacy was being completely invaded. She tugged the Pink Floyd t-shirt she was wearing down lower over her legs.

"Did we uh...you know..." she found it difficult to ask the question.

"Did we shag last night? We were going to; you couldn't keep your hands off me all night! I put you on the couch and next thing I know you've passed out." He chuckled to himself while taking a sip from his mug...HER mug. She suddenly found this man extremely irritating, standing in her apartment laughing at her. She grabbed the blanket lying beside her and wrapped it around her shoulders. He did not stop staring at her the entire time she stood up.

"I think you should leave now," she said.

"Alright i can sense I'm not welcome here anymore, don't get your knickers in a twist. I'm gonna need my t-shirt back there love," he said with a mischievious grin. She looked down at the Pink Floyd t-shirt. Turning away from him she managed to keep her upper body covered with the blanket while taking off his stupid smelly t-shirt. She threw it at him in a crumpled ball. On his way out the door, he had the nerve to tell her to give him a call. Could he not see her dislike of him? She slammed the door in response. She locked the padlock and the deadblolt and slid down against the door. She squeezed her eyes tight as she ran her hands through her short, black, knotted hair. Opening them, the feeling of dread came back as she looked at the disaster she called home. The horrible feeling of not being able to remember much of what had happened last night was frigtening for Lily. Yet she continued to party as hard as she could. She stood up and shuffled into her room for some clothes. Throwing on an old t-shirt and sweatpants, she went into the kitchen and grabbed some gloves. There was no sense in going back to sleep now, especially in a mess like this...

to be continued.

update.

So i havent posted in a while, i apologize xmas break has been good to me in the sense that i

havent been using the computer or the internet all too much. unlike when im at school and im on

it 24/7. it was a nice break thats for sure.

heres a quick update:

i'm in love with my boy (still) more than ever.

christmas was fine, slept over at my sisters and had xmas morning there with my famjam.

new years was kinda shitty, but what can you do.

i havent gotten up earlier than 1030am this entire break :D

my sleep schedules still messed up but i've managed to catch up on most of my sleep lol.

i will be contributing to a new Toronto magazine called FutuReale, they have an online website as well as a dvd that comes out every month. They focus on the arts, living and culture aspects of Toronto which is right up my alley. I'm so stoked for this, my first article will be about Toronto's Top 5 Bloggers. If anyone has any suggestions lemme know!

as for new years resolutions, i usually dont have any.

but i do have some goals, and one of them is to do my homework every day, as soon

as class is over. If its only a project, start it, and work on it alittle bit every day.

i refuse to fall behind like i did last semester. i want to do things differently this semester,

bring up my grades more.

i think that's all i have so far.

i was supposed to go back to rez today, but the weather has foiled that plan.

so i gotta wake up early tomorrow morning and get there before my class starts.

hopefully it wont be too stressful.

well, as much as i want to keep writing more, i have to get going.

peace&love.

urbs.

room of knowledge.

i went back to my high school to visit some teachers with michael.

i had to wear a visitor's sticker and sign in.

it was weird walking through the halls again.

i definetly didn't miss the pushing and shoving trying to get past

the masses of 9th graders crowding the halls cause they have yet

to learn the rules of the hallway haha. there were new murals up

on the walls, but other than that everything looked relatively the same.

all of my teachers asked how i liked university.

only one asked how me and mike were dealing with the distance.

most of the people we saw all said they were so happy that we were

still together. it was nice to peek over and see him standing there

next to me still, more than a year later. i felt older walking through the

halls. like i had the hidden secret to life figured out, which these kids

shoving past me, yelling and shouting without a care in the world, have yet

to understand.

the last place we went to visit was our photography class. we sat and talked

with a friend of mine and my teacher. i didnt realize how much i missed that

photography class. how inspiring it really was just walking in there. and how funny

my photog teacher still is, picking on students, throwing film canisters at them lol.

the class rooms at GH are beautiful, but they dont compare to this one.

i don't feel as creative while im there, which is disapointing in so many ways,

since your university years are supposed to be amazing. well step by step i'm

hoping they'll improve. first year seems to be all a learning experience for me.

theres a big part of me that wishes i could go back. play a few more games of rugby,

go to one last semi formal, take one more art class and spend one last spare in the

library. i really miss the days when it would get warmer cause summer was getting

closer, and me and mike would skip class with friends to hang out and drive with the windows

down, music loud..mhmm those were my favourite days.

peace&love.

never think.

my four day break from school has come to a close.

im going back to toronto tomorrow, but not till later,

so that way im not stuck at residence all day until my

shift at work starts. that makes me happy cause i dont

feel good still (which is why i can't sleep, and the reason

behind this blog) so ill get to sleep in a bit tomorrow, as

well as spend the day with michael, go back to my high

school and see some teachers and go get michael's hair

cut with him :) im hoping itll be a nice day, and im hoping

ill feel better tomorrow, cause if i dont, work is going to

be very very long.

i finished New Moon. I loved it, regardless of how long

Edward was gone for. I love Stephanie Meyer's writing,

it flows so well and it's so easy to read. I've never been big

on vampires or werewolves but this is actually interesting.

not to mention im the biggest sap youll ever meet :P

hah. well all i know is im super excited to read eclipse

and breaking dawn. i'm hoping i get all four books for xmas.

despite being sick for the majority of the four days, i got to

sleep in my bed, bum around with michael and see my family.

it snowed so much, i wish i got to go play in it, but i had to finish

my lame internet research exam. but its done and over.

no worries.

i just hope i pass.

well. i'm starting to ramble. and i havent been going to sleep at the right

times, like i've mentioned a few times, so i best be getting to sleep.

peace&love.

explosions in the sky.

michael's paint picture of his love for me :)


things are looking up.
i have one last exam left to do which is a take home one- not too bad.
i'm quite happy about that.
i get to go home tomorrow after i finish my shift at work, ill be gone till
wednesday when i have to work again. my goal is to make this job work
and get through december hopefully without having to depend staying
on residence too much.

i've gotten some grades back from some classes, and so far i've been quite
impressed with myself. i've improved my grades by a whole lot and i didn't think
the outcome was going to be that great. i'm hoping that my overall average wont
be too bad now. i really just want to pass all of my classes. next semester will be
entirely different. i plan on trying extra hard in all of my classes no matter what.

the house is going up for sale, er, well i went up for sale yesterday i think.
its a big long story, but the outcome will hopefully be living in a house that
reminds me of the house i grew up in, which makes me really happy :)

things with michael are unbelievable, i think i truly struck gold with cupid
in finding him. i've never loved a human being so much in this way.
i used to think it was too good to be true, and my bubble would pop any
second and i would go back to trying to find mr.right. but i've found him.
and i'm the luckiest girl in the world.

its my neices birthday party on saturday, i cant go to it because i'm working
but ill be there for the day of her actual birthday which is exciting. she's turning 6,
and looks like a 10 year old. shes gotten so big so fast i don't know where time has
gone.

i'm actually sorta excited for christmas even, despite lacking in money, i'm going to

try and get everybody something for xmas. i might have to postpone some presents
here and there due to ridiculous cell phone bills, but we've found a solution for that.

well its getting late, and i want to read another chapter of new moon before
falling asleep. edward cullen reminds me completely of my boy and it makes me
that much happier reading these books :D

peace&love.
urbs.

"pursue some path

however narrow

and crooked,

in which you can

walk with love and

reverance."

- Henry David Thoreau